Relaxation.

Peace be upon cha! It's been so long since I've said that. How have you been doing? Because I've been doing fine! Once again, ups and downs had happened in the past. But those are only the beginning of our life. The reason why I finally wanted to post something is because for the past year and months perhaps, I've been going through serious depression. From what I've experience, I would like to make someone who used to feel what I did or still do feel much better. Before this, we talked of the opposite cycle. As I got that cleared, I shall continue my 'motivational' post for you guys! This post is open to everyone and you're free to try it out! It sometimes helps me too.

Now Now! First things first, take a deep breath! Let it in and let it out. Feel the oxygen coming in your lungs and the waste product seeping out from your body. Now stare at the gif above and think of something that makes you happy. A memory with someone? Your role model? The one you idolize? Anything! 

Think of something that will tell you that this is what gets you going, this is why you still want to live on and this is why you continue being you. Done? Next up! Write down your negative thoughts in a piece of paper. Why do you feel sad? Why do you feel mad? Why are you anxious? Write it all down. After you do that, keep it in a small box or a container. This will help you transfer your negative thoughts to the paper and lock it away by sealing it in a small box/container.

Now how do you feel? Not working? Is it because you have a grudge on someone? You're mad at someone? Think about it. Why are you mad at him/her? Why is he/she doesn't have an impact of what you do? If that is so, you should try talking to the person whom you have a grudge to. Talk in person, do not converse in social media. Social media is such a dangerous platform to talk of this kind of things as individuals are not able to see each other's face expression. 

Either way, they are still pros and cons in both side. Now what about the other side? Are you mad at him/her too? If you are, just forgive him/her. There are no winning neither losing sides by picking what will lead a positive impact. If he/she is not talking to you for what they think you've done wrong then its okay. Keep your posture, breathe and smile. You have nothing to be worried about if you've done nothing wrong. But it is a must to forgive even he/she is not talking to you. Believe me, its okay. You're doing great as a better person.

I can assure you if you follow what I've said, your heart and your head would feel way lighter than usual. Put your mind off what that is making you angry, mad, sad. Even if someone triggered you, try tone it down because you may not realize what you've said that impact the people around you.

This year has been a challenging year and I would love to take the challenge. Some people may leave from the circle of your life, some stayed and the new ones will come in soon. 

After so many years, its finally the year that I've been actually waiting for my whole life. That is I'm going to take my final national exam that is called SPM. It is the last exam that a high school student would take and finally I'm old enough to take this exam. After this, I am going to jump forward to my next goal that is to study in Japan while doing great activities with my friends and family! With that, I am going to take a long hiatus again til the last day of my SPM exams.

Wish me luck! More posts coming soon as I have free time!

It felt great to share what I can with you guys again after so long. Take care! Hana-tan out!

p/s - rip grammar mistakes cause i'm typing this with my eyes drowsy

Opposite Cycle

As one might say, if you don't like it, say it; but sometimes when you say it, wouldn't it be much worse than usual?

Peace be upon cha! Its already the 2nd month of 2K17! How is it going with your chapters of 2017? Anything bizarre? Cause my chapters are getting bizarre indeed. Hypocrites, I got them. Two faced? Yeah its included. Have you ever seen quotes like 'its surprising how friends can be strangers in a blink of an eye'? I know exactly how it feels like. Recently, Mitsu / Yukki has updated her blog about this topic and I'm going to add in a bit of tips and talk.

All of us might know that it is impossible to actually have the perfect companion since nobody is perfect and everyone has their flaws, their opinions. When one's opinion opposes the other, unsatisfactory will occur which leads to fights, breaking trust and bond. This is one of the reasons why most humans are not compatible to be called a best friend if he / she doesn't find the right match to understand each other's opinion. Keep in mind that everyone has different opinions and you or any of us are not advised to look down at the opinion. Respect it instead. Why?

The answer to that is have you ever thought of why this person thought that way? Have you done background check to understand his / her history? What will you do if you are in his / her shoes? Who are you to look down on opinions? No. You don't know the answer to the questions above, don't you? Instead of judging, stabbing behind their backs, bad mouthing; respect them instead. Because if you do the things like what they did, you're exactly like them. You're not much different.

Moving on, do you remember that friend of yours when you're in the first grade of school? Are you still friends with them? No? Its actually a tragic scenario when you used to be close to someone until you parted, becoming strangers. You'd be lying if you say you never experience this. Do you remember the game you played when you're just a little boy / girl? The game that you said it will be your fav game forever and ever. Is it somewhere dusty?

You can see it for yourself how we, humans, forget what used to be precious to us when we find a new substitute. Easy as that. It became the totally opposite of what we used to say, With that, you shouldn't be surprised when you thought you're going to continue your life with your friend but end up not happening as planned. You shouldn't be surprised when you thought your crush likes you but he / she end up disappearing soon after, doing unknown things behind your back.

Things change. It became the opposite of what you think it'll be.

Enemies can be friends.

Friends can be enemies.

Beware with whom you talk to, whom you tell secrets to, whom you share your day to, because if you get attached to the wrong person; it could be your worst mistake.

Be Cautious !!

New Year and New You.

Somehow people always say; "Alright! I'm going to do it! I really am." But seriously what's your point of saying that when you're really not going to accomplish it without making any move? 

Peace be upon cha! Happy new year to all of my permanent readers which includes my family, friends and love ones. We finally make it to another year and I am finally 17. Do you guys remember when I was 13 years old? I was a very naive person that it became very cringe-worthy to me. Well, even tho such memories are dumb and stupid, I'll not be who I am now without it. Don't you think? Through thick and thin I went to high school and I've indeed experienced a lot for the past four years; its such a pain I have to say.

But on the bright side; pain can leads to a greater form of happiness. Stress is the root of each's person happiness in my opinion. It may have been a big delay for the happiness part but trust me its worth the wait. I've been in hell throughout 2016. Family, Relationships; I'm just a mess in a general. Even so, I decide to just accept the past, the reality, the pain. Accepting your current situation will bring you to another state of mind where you believe that everything would be okay and that it is just the beginning. When you believe that you can feel better, everything will be better soon enough.

Have you heard of Dominic Sandoval? A dancer / youtuber in Youtube. His nickname or should I say his stage name is D-Trix and he's very inspirational. He has been through depression like most of us probably had. Do you know what happened when he decide to move on? Miracles kept coming to him. For example, he gotten to be one of the judge panel in his most loved show and he's been having lots of attention in social media by his skills.

Here's a note from me to you. The feeling of depression is the start of every inch of happiness. But its you who make the choice whether you want it to be better or to be worse than usual. There are no human in this world that has never been to depression. Every single one of us must've felt it. Its a part of life.

Now listen to me. Let them say what they want to say. Let them judge you because whatever you do, you're going to be judged in any way possible and you couldn't run away from that. A happy life or a bad life; it all starts with YOUR choice. You make the decision if you want to be happy or not. Sadness and negativity aren't the only things in your mind. Do not let these feelings get you. Dig out the positive atoms in your brain. Do not hide them away because it will lead you to worse.

This message is not just for you, who's reading this, but it is for me as well. Its not an easy task to do, but hey. The light of life will come to you. Your friends, family, your crush (?) or even your partner in life; they are all there for you.

Make your choice.