Peace be upon cha! It's been so long since I've said that. How have you been doing? Because I've been doing fine! Once again, ups and downs had happened in the past. But those are only the beginning of our life. The reason why I finally wanted to post something is because for the past year and months perhaps, I've been going through serious depression. From what I've experience, I would like to make someone who used to feel what I did or still do feel much better. Before this, we talked of the opposite cycle. As I got that cleared, I shall continue my 'motivational' post for you guys! This post is open to everyone and you're free to try it out! It sometimes helps me too.
Now Now! First things first, take a deep breath! Let it in and let it out. Feel the oxygen coming in your lungs and the waste product seeping out from your body. Now stare at the gif above and think of something that makes you happy. A memory with someone? Your role model? The one you idolize? Anything!
Think of something that will tell you that this is what gets you going, this is why you still want to live on and this is why you continue being you. Done? Next up! Write down your negative thoughts in a piece of paper. Why do you feel sad? Why do you feel mad? Why are you anxious? Write it all down. After you do that, keep it in a small box or a container. This will help you transfer your negative thoughts to the paper and lock it away by sealing it in a small box/container.
Now how do you feel? Not working? Is it because you have a grudge on someone? You're mad at someone? Think about it. Why are you mad at him/her? Why is he/she doesn't have an impact of what you do? If that is so, you should try talking to the person whom you have a grudge to. Talk in person, do not converse in social media. Social media is such a dangerous platform to talk of this kind of things as individuals are not able to see each other's face expression.
Either way, they are still pros and cons in both side. Now what about the other side? Are you mad at him/her too? If you are, just forgive him/her. There are no winning neither losing sides by picking what will lead a positive impact. If he/she is not talking to you for what they think you've done wrong then its okay. Keep your posture, breathe and smile. You have nothing to be worried about if you've done nothing wrong. But it is a must to forgive even he/she is not talking to you. Believe me, its okay. You're doing great as a better person.
I can assure you if you follow what I've said, your heart and your head would feel way lighter than usual. Put your mind off what that is making you angry, mad, sad. Even if someone triggered you, try tone it down because you may not realize what you've said that impact the people around you.
This year has been a challenging year and I would love to take the challenge. Some people may leave from the circle of your life, some stayed and the new ones will come in soon.
After so many years, its finally the year that I've been actually waiting for my whole life. That is I'm going to take my final national exam that is called SPM. It is the last exam that a high school student would take and finally I'm old enough to take this exam. After this, I am going to jump forward to my next goal that is to study in Japan while doing great activities with my friends and family! With that, I am going to take a long hiatus again til the last day of my SPM exams.
Wish me luck! More posts coming soon as I have free time!
It felt great to share what I can with you guys again after so long. Take care! Hana-tan out!
p/s - rip grammar mistakes cause i'm typing this with my eyes drowsy
